You are the light to my sorrows
My savior for unknown tomorrow...
Believe me when I say,
I will love you everyday...

You left me stranded so abruptly
I don't even have time to breathe...
My heart bled the darkest red..
But I guess it's just fate...

Slash my throat with a broken blade,
So I can get rid of this deep hate...
I'm confused so as what to do or say..
But to live life like i had the other day...

My eyes bleed from this pain..
I feel like dying once again...
You left me on my own in the cold,
As i watch my worst fear unfold...

Though i hope we will be together again..
I know that u never felt my pain...
You came and you went away..
Just like your voice,it fades away....

-Asyraf G

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

2:55 AM
but you never came...

.:Reasoning:.

i don't get it when some people say that 'at least you got to know,eventually'.seriously.it's supposed to make things better?and also,the difference between a guy friend and another girlfriend is because girls gossip?there's no reasoning in that either.and things like,i didn't tell you because i don't want to hurt you?that's really weird.women say things like equality,being on par with men and shit like that.so,why is there still double standards?i really don't get it.i'm not being a sexist here,but seriously,sometimes i just don't understand how women think like.if it was told initially,it wouldn't be as hard as it as.finding out on his own and being told eventually is what makes it hard to swallow.because he feels that,there should be a certain degree of understanding between 2 friends of the opposite sex.even though the guy has feelings for the girl,and the girl knows it.

it will hurt less if the girl told him earlier.at least he's the first to know.instead of finding out for himself and being told eventually.after a week.it might have the same outcome,but i believe that it will surely be less painful for the guy.because i believe that it gets more painful to swallow in time.the longer you keep it from him,the more hurt he'll be when he finds out.and don't let him find out for himself,he'll feel betrayed.

to the girls out there.even if the guy still has feelings for you after you told him that he's not the one,if you have a boyfriend and are still friends with the guy,he should be the first to know.so that he could recover faster from his unrequited love.if he can't get over it,too bad for him.as it is,too bad for me as well.

and that is my reasoning.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

3:30 AM
but you never came...

.:I'm worn out:.

fuck this shit.fuck life and fuck everything else in between.you aint got no shit on me.i'm a sore loser so fuck that shit.it's not fucking worth it.wasted tears.wasted years.karma hit me hard.fuck karma.i'm happy for you.*sound of hands clapping* i was stupid,am stupid and will always be stupid.how idiotic of me.hah!i saw it coming.really,i did.but again and again,i did nothing.and i'm at the losing end yet again.yay me.fuck this.all the best with your fairy tale.i'll always be your nightmare.the person that you know is dead.asyraf g is dead.all the best to you and i'm going to really try and keep my promise this time.you won't hear a word from me again.ever,again.

My blood,poisoned with hate and despair,
My heart,wounded and bare.
As much as i want to stay,
It's best for me to go away.

Farewell Juliet,
My sweet,lovely Juliet.
It was fun,
You killed me in more ways than one.

-The fallen lad(asyraf G)

Monday, October 11, 2010

11:59 PM
but you never came...

.:It's really been awhile:.

alot has happened withing these few months.i'm finally back to being a civilian.finally got back my pink ic and such.now,to find a proper job.the current job tht i'm holding is kinda,ionoe,not satisfying.i shall stop there.hari raya came and passed.not much of a big deal.life goes on.

i've been listening to alot of kpop nowadays.i feel weid.a goodkind of weird.haha not listening to metal that much.not complaining either.new metal songs sounds so deathcore-ish with numerous breakdowns and such.it's really,very annoying.

and partly because,indulging myself in kpop and korean variety shows makes me happy.and not think of the pathetic little me that i already am.a form of escapism from life itself.i've been running after the same thing for months and months and it's getting nowhere.sometimes it makes me think that i'm not really significant.so i guess,i won't ever achieve that kind of happiness.not yet at least.i can safely say that i've stopped finding my 'one'.finally.it gets very tiring after all those years.lol now,i'm always in my own little bubble listening to my favourite kpop bands and such.at least i won't feel sad.

i sound super pathetic.i know.haha but,oh wells.on a lighter note,my band's doing good.just finished our 4th original.i'm uber excited.please please please let my band perform once before the year ends.it will be our achievement.=D

well,i guess,that's it for now.i miss ranting on my blog.haha annyeong!!^.^V

Friday, September 03, 2010

1:59 AM
but you never came...

.:One Liner:.

imma start moving on.period.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

4:14 PM
but you never came...

.:Ponder:.

My computer has been giving me problems as of late.
So,I'm attempting to blog on my blackberry.ahaha
Hope this thing works.it's weird having to type
Sentence by sentence because I don't really know
The space limit.so bear with me for a bit.=p

Life has been okay.nothing much to complain about
But,I'm guilty of not being contented as well.
Can't blame me right?I mean,its so annoying that
Everytime I tried,it will always have the same
Outcome.annoying much.really.

In 2 weeks time,I'll taste salvation.something I've
Been looking forward for since the day I was
Enlisted.ORD OHHH.I would love to shout this phrase
At the top of my lungs.but,at the same time,sadness.
2 years,gone by in a blink of an eye.all those times
Spent walking around in uniform acting cool and such.
It's really something to be missed.ahahaha though,
Sometimes it might not go the way I plan it to be,
All's good in the end.

Soon,this chapter will come to a close and a new
Chapter will begin.I'm really looking forward to
School.to be able to start anew and stuff.but,
Scared of being an outcast due to my age.ahaha
Not something important but yeah.=p

I miss blogging,really.so,take care readers and til
I blog again,have a good fasting month and god bless.
Assalammualaikum.=)

Thursday, July 22, 2010

5:08 PM
but you never came...

.:an influx of emotions:.

i'm going to take a break from blogging.i'll be back if i have anything interesting to share.i might update this blog of mine either saturday or sunday.but,for now,take care and god bless.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

4:42 AM
but you never came...

.:World Cup:.

for the first time ever,the team that i've been supporting since the beginning,made it to the finals.for the first time ever,Spain will play in the finals.and hopefully,for the first time ever,Spain will be World Champions of soccer.watch out Oranje,we're going to paint soccer city RED!